Shame filled my heart…

A few nights ago I came face to face with my past. A past that was so far off in the distance I had imagined it would never return to my present.  I was wrong.  Why had it returned?  Why now?  I’d like to tell you have the complete answer for that, but I do not.

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It’s been too long!! Sorry for not having posted sooner. My husband has been out of the country and while my kids are older it’s just not the same with him gone. All the things we do together I have to do all by myself. Poor me, right?!  Also, just keeping things going on the farm…so grateful for kids that will pitch in and help pick up the slack.

The good news, he’s home now…. Happy wife!!

It sounds like I have been a victim of busyness…  I was just reading an article this morning about the “No Anointing.”  I must say, there were some good points in there.  For some of us it really is an issue of not being able Continue reading

It’s Not Dead!!!

Oh my goodness!!! I was so excited this morning when I walked outside to see this…20160912_091618.jpg

I know, it’s another sunflower and to you that may be all it is, but that’s not at all what I saw. I saw a sunflower that had been transplanted a few weeks and although I had watered it, it began to wilt almost immediately. I thought surely it would die, but this morning, there she was… Head facing straight up towards the heavens!! AMAZING!!! Bright and Shining!! WOW! WOW! WOW!

You see, the reason for my excitement, is that I had left that sunflower Continue reading

What Are You Wearing Today??

School started back up for us this week and I really wasn’t ready.  However, 2 days in and it’s going well. We homeschool, and we have 2 children. Pretty small for a homeschooling family, but perfect for us. Nathaniel is in 11th grade (how is that possible), and Sophie is in 6th grade. 20160626_150416.jpg We typically try to have Bible time together during breakfast. That doesn’t always workout, but that is always the goal. With one kid in high school and the other just starting middle school the idea of homeschooling more subjects together has long since ended, sad. So, finding places in the schedule where we can come together is precious.

This week for Bible, the passage of scripture we have been studying comes out of Colossians chapter 3. Paul is talking to the church (Christians) and he makes a great declaration of who we should be to Continue reading

Pruning Lavender…

You may thinking this is going to be a highly technical post all about the finer points of pruning, not! I’m actually quite a novice at this whole pruning thing, but I did learn a little something while I was busy pruning our little Lavender plants. We have about 50 Lavender plants and hope to continue to add the our Lavender garden each year. We think it will just be lovely in bloom in a big patch along the side of the house. Not to mention the calming and relaxing properties of such plant.  Just walking outside we should immediately begin to feel more relaxed. Of course, I’m kidding, but we do hope to grow enough we can share it with our community.

Back to the pruning… So it goes something like this. We started over half our Lavender plants from seeds back in February and they look amazing!! I have to tell you, it has been quite a journey with these plants. The looked so fragile when they first sprouted, even when we transplanted them, we decided to put them in the raised beds because they were so tiny. I was very skeptical that much would even come of them. However, they have proved me wrong. The look absolutely amazing!! Take a look…wp-1471971444533.jpg wp-1471971259846.jpg





Then there’s the other bed of Lavender, these plants were marked down at a local nursery and I figured they were worth giving a shot. Take a look….wp-1471971453279.jpg

Both beds of plants have been treated the same since we put them in the ground. We’ve watered and weeded as needed. But something began to happen with some of the plants. Parts of them began to die and turn brown, while other parts of the plant was still flourishing, and it got me thinking about pruning and a passage of scripture, which happens to be one of my favorites.

Side note: I remember the first time I really caught a revelation of what John 15 was saying and I just had to share it. I had extensively studied every, and I mean every, word of that this passage. I must say, I’m not sure that my dissection of this passage made the impact I had hoped when I shared it with my then Sunday School class, but I was so excited about it. It was like I finally understood everything!! Please tell me someone can relate to my passion!?

So, as I began to prune these little Lavender plants God began to show me, just like I was clipping the dead branches from the Lavender plants, God prunes our dead branches. Not only will He remove the fruitless branches, but there are times He needs to remove branches that are producing.

You see, we often look at pruning in the natural and in the spiritual realm as a negative or failure, but God often desires to prune us, both in fruitful areas and in areas we aren’t fruitful. It’s our attitude that will make the difference. I’m not saying I’ve perfected this yet, but I know it to be true.

I can think of one situation in particular, where God was pruning a fruitful branch from my life and, to be honest it hurt, it was down right painful.  Although, I tried not  to take it personally I struggled, I cried, I whined, and I’m certain I groveled. Not pretty! Not the best season of my life for sure! BUT once I stopped all that pity party stuff, God began to reveal something new to me.  He began to produce new fruit in me.

What I came to realize, hindsight, is that God was making room in me for something I would not have seen had I stayed where I was, doing what I was doing. He had more in-store for me than I had in-store for myself.

As difficult as it can be at times, I promise God knows best. You may have found yourself in a pruning season where God is pruning both fruitful and dead branches just remember to trust God. He knows just what He needs to do in you to produce just the right kind of fruit.

John 15:1-4  “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away;[a] and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.


Oh, the Process!!!

You know, we always hear people say things like, “enjoy the journey”  or “life is a process” and both of those are good, but do you ever just want to act like a 2 year old having a tantrum and stomp your feet saying, “I don’t want too!”

I’m shaking my head at myself, because I’ve been there and more than once. I have to admit, that’s a place I try not to let myself stay very long, but I have visited on occasion, well to be honest, I probably have the t-shirt (if you know what I mean).

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Almost Missed It…

You see this bowl of potatoes? To most it looks like a bowl full of dirty potatoes, but to me 20160809_112217.jpgit represents something I almost missed…

Back in the spring as we were preparing our raised garden beds for planting I noticed a few sprouts that  I thought were weeds and they were about to be plucked out (you may remember that from a previous post). However, when I pulled that weed out there, to my surprise, was a potato! I was quite excited! I was anxious to show Wade so that he could share in my excitement. What I’ve learned living on a farm for only a year and a half is that farming is hard work, rewarding, Continue reading

Barn Sales & Junk…

Taking a deep breath, literaly, as I begin this post…

We finally decided that this week was the week we could squeeze in a barn sale. barnsalesign.jpg.jpegYou’d think this wouldn’t be such a big deal, but I’m dreading it. Really I just don’t want to face the junk that I’ve allowed to pile up in the “I’ll get to that later” mentality. Can you relate?

I find something I no longer need or use and I add it to the pile. Clothes that no
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What’s in a Cloud??

Well, the obvious answer is water… But I’m talking about in-depth, what’s in a cloud. It’s been dry here in SW Michigan and HOT! That’s not a complaint just a fact. When you spend so many months on the cold and cooler side you start to melt when temps get to the mid 80’s and that’s if the humidity isn’t very high.

I start to melt in higher than normal temps and it ain’t pretty!! After a nice hot week, I woke up this morning to a cool breeze. As I was walking around the farm checking out the garden, wondering
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